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Today I bumped into some of the kids I looked after in the Creche last year.I was shocked at how much they had grown up.They didn't recognise me,I had changed a lot too.


I said hello to them and they looked at me funny(which was awkward)and I walked away.As I was walking I began to think about how much has changed in the last year.It's crazy to think about it!!I'm like a different person now.When I worked in that creche I was terrified and shy.I waited to be told what to do and I barely spoke to the other staff.I loved the kids but I was so concerned with doing things the 'right' way but not my way.I took home all of their problems and worried about some of them.I prayed for them.I prayed that they would grow up to be confident people with good values and I prayed that they had good relationships with their families when they were at home.These were things I worried about so much and it was so heart warming to see those kids with their parents today.They were happy as could be.God really answers prayer.


This time last year I was faced with my end of year exams.I didn't care how I did.I was doing the exams because I felt I had to.I felt like I was dumped in my course randomly,it was a stupid course with no career prospects.I went to college and I had a few friends but most of the relationships I had were shallow.I let my self get into the most un loving relationship I could have because I thought so little of myself.I let myself become a doormat who collected all the mud and dust from the other person while they trampled all over me.I know I was crucial to that relationship and I learned so much from it.I can see that now.I can appreciate that it helped me grow up and appreciate my own worth.I know now that I don't need someone else to make me worthwhile.That'll happen when the time is right.This year I have made some of the best friends I could ever have asked for! :)(That's not to sound cheesy,I mean it genuinely!)I feel like I've found myself and I know exactly what I stand for.


I'm now facing my exams with fear and nerves.I so badly want to do well.My course has become my life.My heart is in Deaf mode and I have a passion for helping where I can.I have been given a second chance!God has been the one to let that happen and without him it wouldn't have been possible.He found the money and he gave me the confidence to get over the initial failure and realise that I'm exactly where I'm meant to be.He made me realise that sometimes you need to be grateful for the opportunity instead of ungrateful for the mess that meant you needed him to pull you out.Sometimes God is like my armbands in the swimming pool.I know that I can't swim very well but I'm embarassed that if I wear God for all to see others will laugh,I should concentrate on the fact that I need him to keep me a float.

So I've decided that tomorrow's exam is a blessing,an opportunity to show the world that I was made to do this.A chance to prove that I'm meant to be here too!6% more,that's all I need but I don't want to scrape the barell,I want to glorify God through it all.I want him to know that I appreciate the strength and opportunity that he has given me!


'Sometimes it's the brick that made you stumble and graze your knee that you can use as a step to help you climb the wall that's in your way' :)

Also,I think this song really reflects how I'm feeling...hope you enjoy! :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cgovv8jWETM