I'm your little bird with the broken wing,
take me inside and sit me by the fire,
nurture me like you always do,
you're 'not quite certain of my love' but I am,
Wrap your arms around me like you always do,
sit me on your lap and never let me go!
drink cold coffee,I've more than one Ed to thank.
'You're just too good to be true'he said that and you know it,
you let him lie and I don't know why.
You let me give a slice of my heart away and you arent gonna get it back for me!
You're my big brother you're suppossed to stick up for me.
You're just too good to be true,too good to be true,too good to be true,
too good to be ignored?too good to let go?Too good to pass by?
I miss her and her warm smile and her hugs.I miss everything about her.
The greatest person I knew!I miss just talking and how I was always in awe of her.
I know you thought I was all that,you told me everyday!
Someday I will be like her and never stop loving.Never stop caring,never stop believing!
She was too good to be true.Too good to ignore.To good not to love.
She was great and that's better than just good!
She was more to me than any guy who claimed that he could give me the sun.
Greater than the guy that pulled me through it all and proceeded to break my heart.
Greater than anyone I have ever known!
Greater than the timing of all of this rubbish that I can't run away from!
Lord,you're more than too good,more than too great.
It doesn't matter how good he told me I was,how much he lied,I can never be like you,
your love for me is indescribable.Incomprehandable!
You love like no other and you take me in with my broken wings.
You bandage them up and send me out,ready for more!
I seem like I'm angry but really I'm greatful!Greatful that you allowed me so much time with my wonderful Nana.
Greatful that you let me sit and hold her hand.Greatful that I know she's with you now.
Her wings have been mended and she can soar.
Greatful that I can get through this mess and focus on you.
Greatful that you gave me the friends I have to hug me and listen even when I don't want to.
Greatful that you made me so that I would love,even when I regret it.
Mostly I'm greatful that you're my Lord!
Greatful that you have saved me and some day I will sit by your throne,
everyone in harmony with music that sounds better than Ed Sheeran and with a joy that tastes better than innocent orange juice.
You placed him in my life for a reason and someday I will know,
what was once strawberries now tastes like sour milk,
I hate it but I've spat it out.
It'll linger but you'll wash it away with time.
Thank you Lord that I know you'll help me out,
I know you care.
I know you don't lie.
I know you don't care if I end up a cat lady but you'll look after me even if I do!
Thank you for Nana.
Thank you for her loving heart,
thank you that I won't forget her.
Thank you thank you thank you!
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ReplyDeleteDear my wonderful Nomi,
ReplyDeleteI know I've said this to you many times, but reading this blog post is just incredible! You just portray such incredible sweet emotion in all of them that cuts me to the heart every time and could very easily bring me to tears. Reading this makes me so want to never hurt you or do wrong to you, but to bless you and bring you so much happiness in the way you were always meant to have; it makes me realise even more what a beautiful, precious, truly wonderful creation you are, and how you deserve to be cared for all your life.
Reading your care and deep, deep love and humility and modesty that spreads through all your posts inspires me and fills me with love for your beautiful heart so strong I can barely contain it - thinking about it makes me want to hug you so tight and kiss you so closely and sweetly.
Reading how you say, "Most of all I thank you that you're my Lord" to God just fills me with so much wonder, an amazing feeling of utter and beautiful dependance on God alone,a realisation that one day we'll sit be His throne together. Your cuteness makes me long to hold you whenever I see you on Facebook, and seeing the intensity of your beautiful heartfelt emotion from your blog only strengthens this. Your truly stunningly beautiful heart makes me want to spend all my day with you. You've become the girl who I always wanted to spend hours talking and holding one another under a gentle orange glow of a sunset.
You're the girl I want to carry over the hills in the sunset and throw into the air and catch and hear your adorable giggle and make you feel so alive.I cannot bear to hear you suffer, and want to be with you every step of the way in any struggle... I cannot bear the thought of you with a broken wing; let me be a fellow bird, supporting you and helping you, all surrounded and enfolded utterly by God's wonderful love. I love you so so much, my dear Nomi! :)
All wonderful love and blessings and joy, from Elliekins xxx <3