I hate pancakes...

I hate pancakes!!Everything about them!!I don't understand why people get excited for pancake tuesday!Sitting here writing this I can hear my mum and brothers and sisters in the kitchen talking about them and how excited they are to have them.What is the big deal?!The most annoying thing about pancakes is that they always go lumpy!It's so rare that you can make them completely flat.


Admittedly this is a more aggressive post than the others.It's been a crappy day and it's better to take out my anger on this than on anyone else.It's so rare that I get irritated enough by something to let it get me down but today topped it!


There's lots of things I don't understand in life,why people like pancakes?Why west life are still on the go?Why people wear Chino's?Why girls always go to the toilet in groups?These are all insignificant and small things that tend not to bother me too much in my day to day life.Some other things that I cannot get my head around concern me more and today have become the focus of my attention.


I don't understand how someone can walk into your life and become such a big part of it and walk back out as if they were never crucial.I don't understand how someone can share with you all there deepest thoughts and listen to yours but abandon them as if you know nothing.I don't understand why people suddenly stop talking and make you feel like you've done something wrong.I don't understand why people hug you and pretend that every things okay,or why people stick up for you and then turn their back on you.I don't understand why people say things they don't mean or laugh at things that aren't funny.I don't understand how one minute we were best friends and now we're not!


I don't understand why I can't be where I want to be and I can't make people think certain things about me.I don't understand why I can't help myself from trusting people too quickly.I don't understand why every time this happens I don't learn from my mistakes.I don't understand why these things get me so frustrated and even though I know how lucky I am I still let it get on top of me.I don't understand why I can't always protect the people I love.I don't understand why there's people in India in trouble and all I can think about is how crap my day has been!!


So there are so many things I don't understand.All of these things are like the lumps in the pancakes.Everytime I think bad thoughts or dwell on the negatives I'm pushing myself further away from the plain sailing life and the optimum flat pancake.I suppose, I don't hate pancakes because of what's in them,in fact I like all the ingredients!!I love all the different parts of my life just sometimes when they're all mixed together the bad bits contribute to a sticky mess!!I know tomorrow it'll be over and I won't have to worry about pancake tuesday for another year and I know this mood will pass too.There's so many things in the world that humans just can't contemplate or understand,I know God has a big plan and he puts people in our lives for a reason just sometimes I wish he would make his plan more clear.